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Sunday, August 9, 2009

Hey - remember me??

Wow, it has been a long time. Not sure if anyone still visits or not, but if so, I’m glad you’re here.


I kind of took a blogging break over the summer. I enjoyed my wonderful kiddos and my sweet hubby. Each summer I realize how little time I have left with my kids at home. J. is going into 10th grade this year and M. is starting 6th grade – Junior High!! I cannot believe they are that old. Nor can I believe that I am old enough to have children that old. I still believe that I am a decade younger than I am. It is always a big shock when I realize that I will be turning 40 in January instead of 30.


While we did not do anything extravagant this summer, we did get to spend some quality time together. We had day hours at the gym, which let us have the evenings all together, which will not happen during the school year.


Since I tend to be verbose, here is the Reader’s Digest Condensed Version of our summer:

- J. got to go to church camp in Arkansas
- The girls got to gymnastics camp and train with the GA Gym Dawgs. They loved it!
- We got to spend some time at our family’s cabin in the mountains – our favorite place
- Vacation Bible School
- Anniversary trip with hubby to Gatlinburg, Pigeon Forge, and Cherokee
- Starting on the orthodontic road with M.
- My baby girl turning 12
- Drivers Ed. For J.
- J. getting a boot on her foot for tearing up a ligament/tendon and bone bruising
- Went to funerals for 3 different people
- NOT GIVING IN TO THE DEPRESSION MONSTER!!


The depression monster really tried to get me this summer as I had a lot of things hitting me all at once from many different locations. I really worked hard into not giving in, but it took everything in my power. While normally I have a very low sense of self worth, I was actually quite proud of myself for being able to hold it together this time. I have never had some of the things happen to me before that I had to deal with over the summer; nor have I ever been treated the way I was by some this summer. I got hurt very deeply while dealing with some stresses at my jobs as well as a lot of changes going on at church and at home. There were many nights that I cried myself to sleep, and many days that I hid in the bathroom and cried. There were many times that I could not stop thinking on all of the things that were going on. However, I NEVER gave up hope! This was due to many factors – good friends, good family, and a great God. I remembered all of the wonderful things my “online” friends and my “church” friends, and my “work” friends and my family have said to me along the way. I also remembered the promises that my Father in Heaven made me about never forsaking me and that if He led me to it, He would lead me through it.


I appreciate all of you sticking with me and for being such an important part of my life.
Also, you friends listed over there on the right of my page? I truly love you all and send my apologies for not visiting your sites lately. I kind of removed myself from the blog world for a little while. I did miss you all dearly and hope that I will be accepted back.
Now I am going to spend my last evening with my family before school starts.

Hug your family – you never know when it will be the last chance you get.

3 comments:

Sue G said...

Yay, you're back. I feel as if you just opened the front door to my heart and called, "Hey, honey, I'm home!"

I'm thrilled to hear that you have enjoyed your summer, albeit mixed with some challenges to your spirit. Praise God that you have risen above the ashes to fly freely from the cruel burdens of depression. I know it isn't easy to fight the devil, but I learned long ago to try to see a bigger picture--a God's eye view, if you will--in every circumstance. And it also helps me to know that all words and behaviors come from either love or fear (something I learned in a book I edited). When something hurtful comes at me, I know it is coming from fear, not love.

You have been missed. I miss your writing, your sharing, and your visits to my CB site. (The last one is selfish, I know, but I can live with that!)

And, honey...I'm so glad you're "home."

Unknown said...

I missed you! The web missed you! Your blog missed you! Your blog readers missed reading your blog that was missing you!

Glad you're back and very proud of you for surviving a tough (but still filled with family joy) summer.

Anonymous said...

Welcome back sweet Mamasita, you were missed. So very happy though to hear you had taken a short break, so to speak.I know J. and M. really enjoyed the summer camp amoung other things.They are growing up way to fast, huh?
I wish I could have been someone you could have laid your burdens on this summer. While you were in your closet crying I was praying for understanding of your recent events of difficult times.

You are always right there in my heart and I love you as always. Congrats on keeping the depression at arms length. Martha